I was on my way to school, when I spotted you from afar Trying to dodge the fools, who just parked their cars I’d been thinking about this outfit While I made up my school kit My vest is my torso, I never suit up The thread of my headphones, dangling under my crotch I mustered all my courage, lit up my cigarette Floating on the urge, to have a real life chat With you the girl that I love, although you kicked and shoved Me deeper in the well, but I’m anticipating facts You were smoking yourself Had to put off your earphones, ‘cause there was your Facebook friend A sober time bomb But I gave it my best shot Back then you were smiling But then your look began to sour, coming on my socializing I wasn’t ready for this, we stood in the corridor And I asked you to smoke a cig, instead of answering yeah sure You said you were waiting for your friend, I said ok and went outside And there I stood with my cigarette, didn’t know what to expect All of a sudden you popped up, a long way further You took a walk around the block; did you do that on purpose? Or was it just bad luck, I could have kicked myself My social skills may suck, but I might as well Talk to a brick wall, the memories I recall Are basking in the sunlight, you heft a sigh When you got wind of me, your mind was on economics But I seized the opportunity, and that’s what you expect from me So I started a chat How can I convince myself, that you’re a no-go? Think of my own health, chances are only so-so I can’t afford to ignore, you, you were “slightly bored” Before I knew where I was, you reached for your last resort And turned to my homie With smalltalk and baloney Because I left a few gaps I’m having cop car illusions, and you hung down your head Slowly passing me by, in my back I feel the threat With a broken rear light, I’m an easy target Hallucinations of your presence, make me tend to forget I’m as blind as a bat; the sirens aren’t on the track I thought I had my blue lights, but there’s a second van ahead I thought you slung your hook, when I was lingering on I gathered from your look, you couldn’t wait to get home Hiding in your earphones Trying to pass unnoticed, or rather sneak away I clenched my fist; I really wanted you to stay Against your will you came And asked how my exam was Always being fair and square It began to down upon me, it came to nothing there I shattered your illusion, the day after the fair I realized I lost the game, I can’t accept that I failed I know I should have been engaged In economics instead, of letting you turn my head That’s how it’s done, there’s occasion to be sad But keep your problems to yourself, or else you’ll drag her down You’ll get nowhere with that frown I was afraid to loose you Before we even met CHORUS A few weeks went by, and I tried to forget Your deep brown eyes, but I’m afraid it went From bad to worse instead There was no way back The patience I lack Plus the undisputed fact I’d never see you again After I had my results, made me rush my fences I always fuck it up, by asking Facebook questions That didn’t please you And you made it clear too; you were in the front rank Noticed all of your friends, but I didn’t see you When I saw for myself All the re-exams I had to take again, I was completely dazed It didn’t seem to affect, your ever smiling face You frolicked past me, and ignored my gaze You were fake happy, so you wouldn’t lose face I really didn’t know, what was happening to me I gave away the show, in all honesty Later I found out, you had re-exams yourself About as many as I had, seven as a fact I guess I don’t like your kind, let’s just leave it at that CHORUS

To live for the weekend, and Monday be downhearted A hopeless dead end, that’s how this week started I’m the drunk among my friends - the booze got me retarded This is top-class sport, but I’ve never been rewarded I’m dry until Friday, and then I bike to the pub I don’t want to be delayed, because sober friends might ask what’s up I drink two beers and wait, for people to show up Light-headed I’m safe, although I don’t perceive it Because I’m too far gone, I was shitfaced all along You need a few achievements Like a psychedelic band, you have nothing to my grieving I know you prefer men, but can you please explain the meaning Without a deck and cigarettes, this is as good as it gets Five or six trappists, got me don’t know how to act I start to speak the truth, when I’m trying to attract No less a person than you, not really my trump card I feel like just any fool, who’s trying not to take heart To seduce a girl like you, I just want us to be cool Wrote my findings on a beermat, because walls have ears Had to make it disappear This coming to light, is one of my biggest fears I crumpled it up in my hand And hoped the ink would run out, by my abundant sweat What an idea to stash, it in a defective urinal This isn’t The Godfather, with once more a funeral Better go to the bother, of returning to the crime scene Before they fix the toilet, and the bar tender will spoil it My conscience bothers me, when I’m drunk with the beer This explains all the apologies - I always make good cheer But the day after I regret, all the things I’ve said To you my Royal Hotness, one day I’ll break my head If I go on like this, but the booze is all I have And I will always find the cash, to get my brain sedated I’m a man of blood and flesh, and you got me infatuated Yesterday I've been drinking; I'm getting the hang of this I got to stop thinking, in Facebook statuses Going out in disguise, sounds like a good idea Because all the local guys, know awkward things about me I'm institutionalized, a change of environment Is strongly advised, the bar isn’t my horizon Nowadays I wake up, with as good as nothing No girlfriend, no job, I'm trying to think up something When I get up in the morning, I got to find shelter Because parents are patrolling They show up without a warning Sniffing at my door, like a beat up horse Fits of paranoia, in my own house I feel like a stowaway, on a ship at sea That's pretty far away, from mooring in a quiet bay The only difference is, that I don't see the world I only see the sky, and the clouds that uncurl Not a day goes by, that I don't think of this girl Have to rely on myself, and the sails I unfurl The pain in my neck, is probably going to last If I don't find a job fast, I'll remain a hotel guest Who never pays his rent To live in a golden cage, that isn't rageproof My whole life takes place, under this roof Trying not to lose, my mind and go apeshit Looking everywhere for booze, but the bottles I hit Carry past dates, an alcoholic wouldn’t fit Here for one single day But still my parents call me names I bet you don’t know what I mean, because you’re one of the happy ones Born where the grass is green, you don’t have to pull stunts To be happy on the scene, you don’t resort to blunts I have horrible dreams, because I always wake up Please get out of my head; I don’t want to get stuck In the moments we shared, I always have bad luck There’s a lot on my mind, you can tell by my frown But I really need a margin, to wear the pain down If you ask me, being in love is overrated If you rely on how I feel, I wish I were infatuated

Saturday was Judgement Day So I was neatly shaved I had been planning this all week, like a last crusade Trying not to be afraid Should have considered my fate Love is always late Can’t afford myself to wait It was definitely not a date It just had been a while, since we had a live debate About all kinds of music styles, to be precise the ones we hate We don’t seem to get along Why is this feeling so strong? Because I did you no wrong, I didn’t stand a chance Don’t feel like writing another song, I’m just trying to understand Where it came to nothing, and the features you demand Indulging in drink, wasn’t according to plan But your ex got in my way He didn’t want me to stay I was one too many, so I crossed the marketplace Although dead drunk I fail, the answer isn’t booze Realized it too late, told you that I fancy you With a lot on my plate, you must have noticed that too You appeared out of the blue Yes Sweetheart Like You, sounds like a business call Of course you turned me down, and nobody broke my fall I swallowed all my pride And by fits and starts, just let it all slide The compliments I fired, did not convince you Please bear in mind, that I don’t intend to Show you in a bad light, I know getting over you Is sure going to take a while When I close my eyes I replay that night, although it was pitch-dark You were in the spotlight I linger on in the past I remember you forget More than anything else I still want us to be friends But you got to give me time; it’s hard to accept That I misread the signs, and failed my last attempt

I tried to cheer myself up, at the end of the alley I looked out for the cops, when I was pissing in the valley Called college town Ghent, I forgot how to talk When I clammed up in the end, I could do with a walk The show-off ‘ll soon grow old, but he had their attention The hard-core shows bored, and I was cooped up in the mansions The rain rolled on the roof, I used to wander around Until I ran across you, I passed you without sound I nearly died with fright The minute you arrived You could not possibly know, you were sniffing at my shawl You didn’t go out of doors, although you took the call Maybe I’m too blame, but I mistook you for the nightfall Is it impossible to love you, ‘cause I don’t know you? I cannot move mountains, we still talk like accountants Can’t even pretend that I miss you But at the same time, you know I really do The light changed to red, as I caught sight of you A smile under your beret, and I kept my cool When we went upstairs, I almost broke of the rails You shook your hair, in a fair way to fail We made a tour of the library And I stood you a cup of tea I walked along to your school, overpowered by grief And I had not a clue, why my eyes filled with tears I spotted you on the platform, where we catch the same train I know you mean no harm; maybe you were off your game Because you didn’t catch my eye My mobile phone asked you why, so you gave me a ring You went crazy ‘bout your boyfriend, but the news still stings I don’t have the case in hand You never call on request; I heard your voice in my ear My heart was pounding in my chest, you offered your apologies And proposed to roam the town, but it never gets done Because you are not around, when I’m walking in the sun CHORUS When you suddenly turned up, I felt your hand on my shoulder I was drinking in our pub, and I felt older and older You were talking to your friends, but I’d had my chips You alarmed me at a glance, as if I made a slip I emptied my bladder, but when I went down the stairs And struggled through the chatter, I ran into empty chairs Do I need your permission, to have a chat? Isn’t that a bit ambitious, for a filthy rat I wished you pleasant roadhouses, and fine winter days The gaps in my trousers, did not distort your face You left without leaving word, you do not realise How much it hurts, to spot you dancing with guys On a chair into the background, you almost stumbled over me Yelling at your crowd, and I could hardly believe You hit the door without goodbye; I gave you my last demo But didn’t notice the guy, my sympathy ran low When you said goodbye to the mates, but missed me out I slowly faded away, because I had no doubt That you ignored me on purpose, I ended up in the brook And to make matters worse, you don’t let me off the hook

The last day of July, I woke up at twelve I guess I threw a party that night, and my house was a mess That also applied, to the contents of my head But I was feeling all right, ‘cause the party was fat I went downstairs, shit a homie slept In my brother’s bed Later we sat in the garden, with a common hangover I heard a sound quite alarming, no shopper with a Range Rover But a shopping trolley on the drive, pushed by a big guy Who seemed to be my boss, the trolley was total loss Because we stoked a fire in it, yesterday evening Not until then, I remembered everything About the gangster party, and the beer we bought In his supermarket, it wasn’t my fault I was just too lazy, to bring the trolley back I thought he could miss one trolley, so we burned it for lack Of a suitable alternative, for a pleasant campfire We went skating in it, I didn’t notice the guy Who was actually my neighbour He stood at his door, and I thought about it later My neighbour was our witness And the motherfucker snitched us This may sound rather funny, but the results are not My boss blamed me ‘cause he knew me, from my holiday job He threatened a call, to the cops if I did not Show up within an hour No time to take a shower I looked for some clothes, and ran to the supermarket On sight I froze, I thought they didn’t call the cops yet But they were on their way, that’s what the big boss said Hard to keep their word, when two men are bent On emptying my pockets, like I launched a fucking rocket In that shopping trolley, I almost lost all the money That I earned in the supermarket, as a holiday worker That balding jerker Claimed damages from me 350 dollars, my dad said I was crazy To pay so much money, for one stupid trolley I guess you think it’s my own fault, but I didn’t know the impact I couldn’t keep hold, on my feelings of revenge